hi.
im a mess.
i made brownies.
have a day as beautiful as you are.
xx

so i have this new-found obsession with velvet....
@biddy4ever i blame you even though we haven't talked but we mutually follow each other on tumblr and you seem really lovely and you did inspire my love for velvet and i should really stop rambling now.
 
the moral of the story is velvet = good.
bye lovelies ♥♥

so erm hello again.
i haven't much to say except i don't really like weekends, journalism is making me very slightly suicidal, and my sister is having a birthday party today.
 
my plans for this weekend include laying in bed, being depressed, drinking tea, listening to sad music, and watching supernatural.
 
xoxo, amanda ♥
 
p.s. - go ask me questions on my tumblr? (link in profile btw)

im baaaaaaack!!
i've missed you all so much, omg.
i havent been able to make a proper set in so long, i just jept messing up.
i've also been kinda busy.
tumblr may also be to blame.
*insert shameless self promotion here*
her-dark-perfections.tumblr.com
(and then an evil cackle.)
but i jope i'll be back for more sets and general polyvoreness and also my story, whoo.
 
so wish me luck not completely binging on easter food today, blech.
 
I will be thin.
 
anyways, goodbye my darlings ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

so lets see how this goes...
haha the random project they're working on so well thought out lol and ooh let's see amanda's going to try to make ryder go to a party oooh let's see how that works out my guess is poorly oh well
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he was avoiding her. it had been a week, and he hadn't talked to her once, except during class to work on their project. not that she had been expecting it, Arizona tried to tell herself. she was laying on her bed trying to do math homework, trying and failing. sighing, she stood and walked out.
Ryder pushed open the front door, quickly spotting one of his friends. He made his way through the people, grabbing a bottle of something (he wasnt sure what, and to be honest he didn't care) along the way. Halfway there, however, a girl staggered in front of him. "hiii, Ryder," she said. Ryder groaned inwardly. Midnight and already the chick was wasted. He took a slug from the bottle.
 
DAMN IT TO HELL I HAVE TO GO AND I CANT LEAVE THIS OPEN BECUASE I DONT WWANT MY FAMILLY TO SEE IT im sorry i'll try to finish i'll just tag you when i finish
 
@quietcountrymouse
 
oh and hey @celine-roux-laurent did you want to be tagged on this because you said something indicating you did but idk

feeling pretty blargh.
im on tumblr now whoo.
starting a new trimester monday, gack.
*sigh.*
well i managed a somewhat decent set, so thats good.
love you ♥♥♥

COMMENT YOUR TUMBLR.
i made one and i want to follow your faces.
so today i think i'll do a quiz someone tagged me for a long time ago.
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i did not follow the rules. idgafos
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1} Who is your favourite celebrity? You should show us a picture of them in all their glory in a set
- steven r mcqueen (from tvd; i like his face)
- ed sheeran (becuase ed sheeran)
- isabel lucas (she's effing gorgeous)
 
2} What is your favourite fandom?
- any fandom that's funny.
 
3} Do you have a favourite colour or many? You should add a lot of your favourite colours in the set, because you know, they're your favourite colour (s)
- um i like greens purples and blues

4} Do you enjoy food and if so (don't lie to me, everyone loves food and if they don't they're either lying, or they really don't like food) you should show us that food.
- i like nutella avocados peaches and yeah
 
5} Music. Who is your favourite singer/band and what is a good music line you think of?
- i like ed sheeran and the summer set
 
6} Do you have a fictional character you keep close to your heart?
- anyone from harry potter. they give me fuzzy feelings. ♥♥
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tags.
@temotaher
@onediirectionlover
@mariajoau
@celine-roux-laurent
AND IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS GO RIGHT AHEAD THIS IS ME EXTENDING THE INVITE TO YOU ALRIGHTY?
 
alrighty.
 

 

p.s. - im lonely and kinda sad.
p.p.s. - that will be all.

@quietcountrymouse okay. lezgo.
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Ryder had left Arizona asleep on the couch at her house the night before, slipping out the door and into the dark starry night. He hadn't slept well, and now he lay in bed staring up at the ceiling. He was conflicted. Ryder thought back to a few weeks ago, when he had been hangin out with a handful of friends. He had been joking about how Arizona had a crush on him, and one of his friends offered up a bet.
'Could you get her to really like you?' the guy had asked. 'Bet you can't,' they teased. Ryder knew he could do it, so he had consented, laughing. He hadn't anticipated the turn of events. He wasn't developing feelings for Arizona. He refused to. Besides, he was almost there. The kiss, the beach, the hand holding. Soon he would be done and could move on with his life.
Yawning, Ryder turned onto his side and tried to go back to sleep.
Arizona hated to admit that she had expected Ryder to be there, next to her when she had woken up in the morning.
She sat up and stretched, her body stiff from sleeping curled up on the couch all night. She thought about the day before and winced. Sure it was fun, but what had she been thinking? Ryder was.. Arizona blushed, even though there was no one downstairs. What was Ryder? One moment he was a smirking bad boy, the next he was holding her hand and cuddling on the couch.
And leaving, she reminded herself. You can't let your guard down around him. Arizona sighed, pushing herself to standing, and headed to the kitchen to make a cup of tea before her mother got up. She passed the plastic shopping bag of snacks and dropped in the trash as she walked by.
Over the next week, neither of them spoke to each other. Arizona was trying not to let Ryder in, and Ryder was trying to get her out of his mind.
Arizona would see Ryder in the halls and look away. They were part of entirely different social standings anyways. Arizona was by no means social and popular, while Ryder was. He always had some whoreish girl by his side, and Arizona was irritated to find herself mind this time. He's just a boy, she told herself. No different from any other. They met to work in the project, stilted silences maximizing both productivity and awkwardness. More than ever, Arizona wished the paper would end. Finally, it did. They have their presentation, turned in the paper, and breathed a collective sigh of relief. Arizona knew she never had to see Ryder again, and she felt the smallest twinge of disappointment at that. It's all over now, she thought. No boy drama. Just back to normal.

well hullo. Warning, @quietcountrymouse, I started the first bit, and then came back later. So this is the shittiness that I get when I write at almost 2:00 in the morning...
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Arizona sighed. "I did, I guess." She turned to look at him, wondering if he would make her elaborate. Ryder looked her in the eyes, brown to green. "I see." Arizona looked out to the sea again, and Ryder squeezed her hand. Their snack cakes lay untouched next to them as the sky darkened and the wind blew.
As the rain began to fall, Ryder pulled Arizona to her feet. They stood on the beach together, so close Ryder could have counted her freckles. Arizona closed her eyes, the air smelled of sea and rain. When she opened them, Ryder was watching her, standing close, still holding her hand She felt like he was going to kiss her. She was certain. But something in Ryder's eyes changed, and he pulled back. "C'mon." He stooped to get their things, then tugged her up the sandy hill. "We should get you home, huh?" Arizona turned back one last time, in her again wet clothes, glancing back out to the horizon.
Luckily her mother wasn't home, Arizona thought. She would have gotten some strange looks, coming home in sandy clothing with a tousled boy. The boy in question looked a little uncomfortable, so Arizona, laughing, directed Ryder to the upstairs shower. While he was gone she did the same, changing into sweats. There were footsteps in the hallway, so she turned, her breath catching in her throat.
"Hey." Ryder smirked. It was funny how awkward she was. He ran his hand through his wet hair. "Do you have anything for me to wear? I mean, I'm fine the way I am," Ryder gestured to his towel-clad body, "and so are you, even though you hate to admit it," Arizona rolled her eyes at that. "Actually, I think I'll just stick to this." He stepped closer to Arizona. Her heart beat faster, and she could see the beads of water on his skin.
Ryder felt a twinge of guilt, but he pushed it aside. He moved closer.
Arizona felt it again. Was he going to kiss her? She thought he would the first time, and she had been wrong. But now? Now Ryder had her backed up against the kitchen counter, his hands on either side if her hips. And then it happened. He leaned in, and pressed his lips to hers. He put a hand in her hair, at the back of her neck, and kissed her.
And then it was over. Ryder smirked, and walked away, down the hall.
An hour or so later, it was late, and Arizona was getting tired. She was curled up on the couch, Ryder across from her. She yawned, and he got up. Watching from under half closed eyelids, Arizona's sleep-deprived self barely noticed when Ryder lay next to her, wrapping an arm around her waist. Their legs were tangled together as she dozed off, her head on his chest.
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So hope you like, loves. It's like 1:57 and I think I'm crashing, so I'll probably go.
Much love xoxoxo
 
P.s. - actually I'm waiting until 2 precisely it's here night little ducks ❤❤❤